06.27.2007
New Blog[site]. :] ... :/I needed something I could rant on and the blog on MySpace was too much of a hassle. Why? I don't know. This seems so much better.
Yeah.... So as it turns out "Starting All Over" just seemed right. There are too many reasons to try and explain why that seems to be the recurring theme in the past... what is it now... maybe 3 years. From a bad relationship and break up to having my brother home again. All a realization that chances are there and we are all victims of opportunity.
School is something new. I just finished my second set of classes, so far only one B and the rest As. "Yay!" for me, right? Sometimes it feels like it's not something I'm so proud of when I see other people from my High School Grad class having finished their university education on time, 2 years ago. Why? I don't know. I know my family is proud that I'm back in school and I didn't let the hereditary workaholic in me take over. I discovered work at 17. The money seemed to good to be true. Then again, a thousand every month seemed a fortune at 18. Now, it's something I wouldn't be able to get by with.
Point being, I started working with a schedule that didn't work out so well for school. Guess which one I dropped? Stupid... but I was a lot younger. Now, I'm sacrificing time set aside from my social life for school/study time. My focus is not always completely there, but so far, it's passing. Thank goodness for my family and friends. I don't know where I'd be without them.
I got a new place. My roommate, Neyda, Chris, their cute ass daughter, Layla and me now share a cozy little apartment in Downey. I moved out of my mom's place about mid July in 2006. Now, I'm realizing how complicated things get when you don't have Mommy to hand things to you. I'm adjusting. Shit, I've had a whole year of adjusting. Even now, I think I'm still an independent-in-training. I love the apartment. I love my roommates. I do still miss my mom tho, despite what she says. :]
Ah... as for the last but of course the not so forgiving... LOVE. A little over two years ago, I was in what could be considered my most destructive relationship ever. I've had one relationship longer than this last one, but it never lacked respect. This one lacked so many more things, along with that. I don't blame anybody but myself. I learned from my experience. I think it's one reason why I refuse to start something with anyone I don't know. That's just a huge red flag. It hurt. A lot. I disrespected my family, my friends and most of all... myself. I hated it. I hated crying EVERY... FUCKING... DAY. :| I guess, you live if you learn. I ended that with the help of my friends. I guess a good smack in the head felt better than staying in that situation any longer. :] After that, I was down and out for a bit... but now, I can't help being happy. I've got nothing to worry about... that isn't worth my time, at least.
So yeah, pretty long for a first blog on this site. It's a long, short recap of my life the past three years. Hope I didn't bore you, but since I will predicatably be later on, you'll hear me soon.
All my love to you,
Marie
1 comment:
Hi Marie! How are you? Thanks! I am so glad the L'Oreal De-Crease worked out for you! It's so much cheaper than some of the eye primers out there!
And I loved your first post, it's amazing how you can just summarize so many years in a few paragraphs and when you read it back to yourself you are amazed at how much you have grown as a person. I was in a bad relationship as well for 3 years and I stayed (stupidly) because I thought things would change and because it was my first real BF, it wasn't easy to just let go, then he cheated and I feel stupid looking back to even think I spent days crying over him, someone that was completely useless in my life and never appreciated me as a person. With my BF now, I am happy and glad to have someone that can reciprocate how I feel about them. :)
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